i learned the hard way
watched a mouse burn from the inside out
gave handjobs in the Second Hand Rose parking lot
i just wanted to be
one of the boys
i went along with anything
boy
i didn't leave with many scraped knees
didn't dig for worms
but they dug inside me
boy
i got dirty
between basements and back seats
learned not to speak
boy
the fear of God
couldn't stop
boys from being boys
