diagnosis (audio originally)

see
the problem with me she says
the problem with me is that i live in a primal state of defensiveness

it's my mind
all the time it thinks we're under attack !
guard up ready to fight

see
she says this when i talk about you
she tells me i have warm energy
she feels it pushing against her palm when she waves her hand in front of mine
we feel each other without touching
she's really starting to know me now

one time i closed my eyes and she imagined a Clydesdale horse kneeling over my body and gently lying it's head upon mine
she whispered
and i could feel the whiskers
i could feel the weight

see
every so often i ask her why are you taking your clothes off?
and she tells me she is not

i am present again

there is a brindle horse standing in the pasture
it looks healthy

beams of light are shooting through my insides
the sounds of bank vaults unlocking
bright gold

see
i thought she was kind of crazy at first
always calling me intelligent so smart
i told everyone she's crazy!
but i still keep coming back

see she might just be on to something, here.

On mandatory drug tests for welfare recipients

we all have our drug of choice,
you have your children.