wild feathers

I've been crying for your clipped wings
while my wild feathers
lie scattered round the floor.

How could I hurt them more?

What if i take you there
and you don't come back?
What if falling feels like flying?

I've made the scenery so appealing.

What if i
am the greatest actor alive,
repeating lines?

"I want to be alive with you I want to"

Speak so clever and heavy,
i've got a silver tongue
and a mouth full of fool's gold.

My preening never gets old.

Its a beautiful bird of paradise plot
to pull you in and push you out,
fly away and fly back again

fall somewhere between famished and drowned in.

How else can i say,
i don't want my demons,
it's hard for me to leave them

or i want to keep them.

These ruffled feathers
take a while to settle in
this wild heart may take forever

to let you in

found god

found god

on The Farm
nearing death behind the bars

found god

in Gentilly
side of a stucco nest
on Warrington Drive

found god

in the flood marks
with Desmond and them
at Mount Olivet Mausoleum

found god

laminated
in Scott's obituary on a hot street
in St. Roch

found god
outside the corner store
speaking foreign tongues
bloody on a bicycle

found god
inside a freezer
with a whole dead fish

found god
among the maggots
when there was nothing else to find

found god
in the previous tenant's bedroom
thesaurus
synonym for hope

love in the time of borderline personality disorder

how to cradle a volcano
how to dance in the rain
how to hold the hand of your lover
as you watch her change

how to pick up glass
from  in between the cracks
of your dresser drawers

how to run loose in the street
how to put your pup to sleep
how to set your wild heart free
go and come back again

how to tame a feral horse
break it's spirit
with a spitting rage

how to clear the path of a tornado
how to swim from a sinking ship
how to kill a deer tick
carrying the weight of your lover's disease

don't

don't sow my seeds
don't eat my meat
don't plow my fields
don't plant my feet

don't poke your arm
don't gnaw those teeth
don't cut your thigh
don't bruise my cheek

don't come inside
don't close the door
don't keep it all
don't ask for more